So we meet again!
The last time I published something on here was in 2016… TWO FRIGGIN’ YEARS AGO! I’m that constant in whatever I do.
I can’t be so hard on myself, though. I am constant in writing fan fiction, to a point where I’m nearing 1 million published words on AO3. (Don’t ask what my handle is on there, I won’t tell you. This is the part of me that doesn’t aspire to anything professional… what you get is this right here!)
Seeing this about to happen only emphasized my love and dedication to writing. I mean, let’s just say the average book could have 100K words. This means I would have written the equivalent of ten books. And then, I wrote another one under this name here…
That’s eleven books, to some extent anyway, in about five or six years. What the hell am I still writing fanfiction for? To be honest, it’s that fandom I’m a part of that got me to write again. I hadn’t had the time nor the energy to do that in a very long time.
In hindsight, it’s the best thing I could have done. I mean, my writing has gotten much better if you consider that I’m a native French speaker. I pretty much “taught myself” to write in English. So, if nothing else, I’m thankful to fanfiction for that.
Why don’t I take those stories and make them original? I don’t know. It’s a matter of ideas, I think. The overall setting of the fandom I delve in is particular enough that most of what I’ve written wouldn’t work as original prose. It wouldn’t make sense, in my opinion, anyway. But I did write some stuff that’s far enough removed from the initial universe that it could work on its own.
And I want to do it.
This, and I have other ideas that I’d like to write about.
There are also games I’d like to play with my (eventual) readers.
Mostly, I want to tell the stories I want to tell and I don’t know why it’s so hard for. Lack of confidence might have a lot to do with it. Like this post you’re reading right now, it’s not the kind of stuff I feel I should be writing. I liked my other blog posts better, the ones where I shared about stuff I enjoy, like movies, and books, and music…
Aah, music, how much do I love thee…
I think the problem is that I tried to publish something everyday when I started this blog – and it didn’t last. Promising such a thing is the worst thing I could ever do; I don’t have the energy nor the brain power to pull this off. Especially if I try to write actual books on top of it.
I have about twenty blog post drafts started (some only have a title, from back when I tried to plan ahead). They’re still there, waiting for me to write them. And I will. I also have “new” ideas, like revisiting some the older posts, if only to update whatever I had talked about at the time. I mean, a bunch of stuff happened in the last two years, those lists I made are bound to be obsolete by now.
Just know that I won’t promise you to publish something everyday this time around. What I’ll do is do my very best to publish once a week. And if I publish I manage to publish twice, then yay!
If there are things you’d like me to talk about, leave a message down below. I’ll certainly take anything under serious consideration (in order words, I’ll STEAL your ideas!!! *mwahaha*)
Until my next post, please feel free to go and read the older ones (if you never did), or visit my Inkitt page where there are some short stories and a novel to read. Not saying it’s the best stuff out there, but it’s free… and I like ’em!
Have a very nice day, and I’ll see you again soon with a new blog post… a longer one, most probably!